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Weigh In

Weigh In

Weigh In

Well I was right in my last post about gaining.  I figured I had to have a point to move forward from, so I needed my new "starting weight."  It was not good, but I shall move forward from here.

New Blog Beginning

I've been terrible at doing any of the things the past couple of months that I have said I am going to do.  The only thing I have been doing pretty faithfully is reading Katie's Blog.  She is so inspirational, and if I could be motivated by anyone it would be her.  Everyone always says you have to be ready to lose weight, and no one can make that decision for you.  I have had so many things that should be motivation ($100 for every 20lbs I lose from my aunt, $200 for the first 20 lbs from my future MIL, etc) but I still haven't done it.  I got a slap in the face last week when I called to make a payment on my wedding dress and the woman at the store said I would need to order it by the end of Jan.  Holy crap that is next month!  I have let this whole year since my engagement go by saying that I am going to lose weight and look great in my wedding dress, and I haven't lost a single pound.  I actually haven't been on the scale in awhile, and I would not be surprised if I've gained weight. 

This morning I watched the finale of this season's The Biggest Loser on Hulu.  This was the season I auditioned for.  These contestants have all made a HUGE change in their lives, and I've been sitting on the sideline.  After it was over, I decided I was going to workout.  I haven't done anything related to fitness in months.  I went in the backroom and dusted off the treadmill, then jumped on.  I did tried to do the trainer demo that is built in.  It started off nice and slow (2.5).  The incline started increasing, and then the speed increased (3.0).  All of a sudden, the speed jumped to 4.0, which really isn't that fast, but for someone as out of shape as I am, it was killer.  I have to run to keep that pace!  I'm not even sure how long I was able to stick with it.  If I had to guess, I would say probably about 3 minutes.  It felt like the back of my throat was bleeding, and I got a terrible cramp in my foot!  I felt pretty pathetic...I jumped off for about 30 seconds, and then got back on after I slowed it down to about 2.5.  I kept up with the increasing incline for awhile, but then I slowly started reducing that too.  All in all, I only did about 11 minutes.  I'm going to try again tomorrow.

Tonight is this celebration thing for us graduates of nursing school.  My parents, my sisters, and my grandparents are coming from about 100 miles away to see it, and they are staying the night because graduation is tomorrow.  I cannot believe it is already graduation!  It doesn't seem real.  I often think about the stress I'm feeling right now, since I still haven't been able to find a nursing job, and then I think of how we were originally planning our wedding for this January.  I would be in a NUT HOUSE right now if that were still the case (now it is going to be the end of September).

As far as the job hunt goes, I have applied for 11 different positions, have received 4 rejection notices, and have only heard back somewhat positive from one place, with nothing from the rest.  I say somewhat positive because I have to attend this "test drive" for graduate nurses.  It is about 3 hours away from where I am now, and it sounds like anyone who meets the qualifications for the position is invited, but they said to treat it as an interview.  The biggest struggle for me is getting that initial interview.  I stand out better in person, than on paper, so hopefully it will get my name out there!

Bored

So its been a little more than a week since my last blog post.  I've done well to the promises I've made to my mom.  I haven't been out to eat by myself, nor put any food on the credit card.

On Monday, I started back to school for my last semester of nursing school.  If all goes well, I should graduate in December with my Bachelor's Degree.  I say if all goes well because yesterday I fractured my ankle.  I'm a little concerned about clinical because there is no way I can do it with a broken ankle.  The good thing about this semester is the schedule seems to be much more flexible, so as long as I can get my required number of hours in I should be okay. 

So how did I break my ankle you ask?  I wish I had a better story, but I don't.  Yesterday around 12:15 I walked out the front door pulling my rolling backpack, and carrying my purse and keys.  I was headed to class, which started at 1:00.  My porch has 3 steps, and as soon as I stepped on the ground off the steps, my ankle rolled, I felt a "crack," and I went straight to the ground.  I've sprained my ankle a million times playing sports throughout the years, and I've had it "pop" before, but this definitely sounded more like a crack.  I was sobbing, lying on the ground, knowing that if it was a sprain, the pain would ease up enough for me to at least get up.  It never eased up.  After about 5 minutes of almost hysterical sobbing, I was able to clear my head enough to pull my cell phone out of my pocket.  I called my mom first (who lives an hour and a half away).  She tried to call me down, and told me to call Scott at work.  She got my the number for his work (because he can't answer his cell at work).  Before I called him, I called 2 friends that might still be in the area from an earlier class.  They were already home, which is 40+ minutes away.  My one friend said to call an ambulance (she is an EMT), but I said I couldn't afford that.  So I call Scott's work and ask to talk to him.  They are like we really don't do that.  I was crying and telling the woman in the front office how I was lying in the yard and I couldn't get up.  She transferred me to this guy who was a jerk.  He said he'd try to have Scott call me.  When Scott called me, he said he didn't think they would let him leave.  So I called his mom, who lives about 40 minutes away and told her what happened, so she headed out.  I was racking my brain trying to think of who I could call.  I ended up calling my work which is just about a mile and a half down the road.  My boss and my co-worker jumped in the car and headed over.  They got me in the car, and took my to a MedExpress.  Can you believe that the whole time I was lying in the yard crying, no one stopped to see if I was okay?!  I was out there for like 45 minutes! We live on a main road, so it wasn't like there was no one driving by.  A person on a bike even went by on the side walk...I couldn't believe it!!!

So anyway, after all of that, I find out that my ankle is broken.  They put an OCL cast on, which has some hard parts and some soft.  Its kind of weird, but it hold my ankle still at least.  Tomorrow I have an appointment with an orthopedic specialist, so hopefully that goes well.  I am absolutely terrible on crutches! I've tried to stay in one place as much as possible.  My boss gave me the rest of the week off.  Its funny because I am so bored!  When I can come and go as I please, and can move around as much as I want, I don't.  I find plenty of things to do online or watch on Netflix.  But today, when I can't go anywhere and can barely get around, I'm bored silly!

So, with all of this sitting around, I feel like I am going to gain weight like crazy.  Any suggestions for cardio or something that I can do while sitting??  I would appreciate any ideas because I'd really like to lose weight, not gain!